Was he around much? If not then not only were you being exposed to physical (however inappropriate) pleasure, but you were also getting male attention. It's easy to say what she does when you're not the person that lived it. Your friend is thinking only like an adult, it seems to me. That's why the age of consent is called just that- under that, a particular society doesn't expect a person to be able to make an informed decision. That's something your friend needs to understand. And you were enjoying the raw physical sensations- that people who haven't been abused don't understand- sex is sex is sex and unless you're being forcibly raped or physically hurt, sex feels good! And when you're a kid you might have a sense this is wrong but still, you're having things that feel wonderful, done to you and ofc the body's going to enjoy it, right.? Just basic physiology. She's not thinking like you when you were that age- you were a kid! And when an adult does those things, there's a power imbalance, especially when it's someone you know and are expected to trust and obey. but she isn't understanding the dynamic that went on. I've been sexually abused during adolescence, and I wanted it, too! In a way. Well, your friend isn't in your head, sweetie- you did want it, in a way. She takes the attitude that if a girl lets him do things that she wants it. Melissa1234 wrote:She says why didn't I kick him away how could I let him lick me and she thought I encourage him somehow. I feel like somehow I could be happy if I found the right man but now at age 40 wonder if i ran out of time. I tend to get with a guy for about 3 months then move on but I can't just stay home and be alone, I need a man in my life always. I feel like I missed something somehow because I just can't stay with a guy or have him fall in love with me or be a happy couple for the long term. But if I'm not with somebody I get lonely and "horny" and want to find a man to be with. I don't know why I turned out this way but I can't seem to stay with anybody long term. I because promiscuous after that,and never got married again, but always had a man in my life. We eventually divorced, no kids, thank God. I cheated on him, I'm sorry to say, because he was a "meat and potatoes" kind of guy, he wanted intercourse but he wouldn't lick me to orgasm, which I thought should happen. I married young to a navy guy, we moved a few times. Then I stopped getting with my uncle as I got older and had a long term bf in high school. I played with his body and he licked my vagina during these visits. So I invented reasons to go over to his place and we got involved in touching, kissing and licking. But I found I missed getting release since I wasn't seeing him regularly anymore like that. When I got to be about 13 my mom decided she didn't need him to babysit I was old enough to stay home. Eventually he showed me his body and encourage me to touch it and explore it, he had me touch his penis and balls. Our talking became sexual as he asked me if I knew what a mans body was like, if I ever saw a man's body and stuff like that. I didn't want him to stop and I think he knew this because he licked me and I had an orgasm. This includes everywhere, he eventually moved from my chest down to my vagina, *mod edit* I was shock he would lick me there but it also felt really really good. Eventually he would get under my nightgown and kiss and lick everywhere. I enjoyed it and I guess he knew it as it moved on to more. Eventually the touches became much more, he moved on to kissing me *mod edit*, and him reaching down my underwear. When he put me to bed there were lots of long hugs and touching. My mom worked in a hospital overnight so a lot of times I spent the night at my uncles house. It started off with big hugs and him touching me eventually touching me, he said he was seeing if I was developing normally. When I was 8 my uncle started molesting me.
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